I have seen a lot of death in my life. More than the average person living a normal life I think. Some from age & sickness that were expected...some that came out of nowhere and left shock. But with every one comes some type of regret on some level. I have decided that this time I will not loose myself in all of this. All of the what if's and why didn't I's, or all the why's that can never be answered; some of these would be felt by the other if it was me who passed. These things will not bring the person back and will not honor who they were. What I know is that none of these things diminishes the love I have for them or they have for me, nor the memories that flood my mind when I think of them. When my mind turns to these things....I will turn instead to a thought that honors the time I spent with them in my life. The wisdom they shared and laughter I can hear. My heart will ache but it will be with a smile and their love will always remain within me. I love you TJ and with every breath I take I feel you, like before you were born I can feel you inside me. I will never let you go, I was never forget your smile or yur laghter. Your kindness heart to others make you one of a like. I love you baby you will always be my baby as long as I live. Your friends my come and go but your parents will love you unconditionally forever.
my only Sunshine, you make me Happy when times are Blue, so please don't take my Sunshine away from me.. 
Love you always Mom
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