On this night 3-29-2010 6 years ago was the last evening I would ever see the smile on his face and the twinkle in his eye. TJ went to sleep the evening of March 29th and as he slept the Angels came and gently ❤️ carried him away. As morning came the morning of March 1st. I crept into his room to wake him. TJ looked as if he was sleeping peacefully, never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that TJ was no longer of this world. It was and always will be the most horrific moment in my life, it truly took me to my knees. It surly taught me how fragile this life is and not to take anything for granted. I loved that boy so much as we do all our children. It was so unreal for so many months it was as if someone was just playing a cruel practical joke, as if at any moment I would get a phone call from him and wake me from this nightmare. I just thought for months that it was just a bad dream that I was going to wake up from, of course that never happened. It is just one of those unimaginable events that is not supposed to happen, one that ones mind can't wrape itself around. TJ loved life and everything life had to offer him. He was a true friend to so many, loved his guns, playing hockey, and traveling the world with his dad on business and of course his girlfriends. Tomorrow, I will celebrate TJ's Life and remember all the good times, all the laughs we all had that we laughted till we cried. I love you TJ, ❤️ Love never dies, you are with me always and forever in my heart ❤️ RIP precious son, I love you.
I was just thinking about you and TJ. I know this time is hard for you and tomorrow is so painful. I still think about TJ often. And I pray that he is up there with Calvin giving him comfort. I feel guilt a lot that TJ didn't get to experience a long sober happy life. But I try to remind myself to live in honor of him. I still remember what you told me about what he said about how amazing it felt to feel the sunshine on his skin. And every time I feel that warmth I think of him, and you. Lots of love to you! I hope that tomorrow you will feel close to him. Because I can only imagine that's the best gift. I have yet to feel a closeness to Calvin but I still pray to him hoping I will one day. Xoxoxo
